Couture Chaos - La Dolce Vita

2011-10-10T00:39:00.003+08:00

And when u start thinking that u already own me, I leave. I guess u don't know me well enough after all. Ur time is finally up, I don't need u now.

2011-09-30T03:15:00.004+08:00

To superhero, the one who thinks he knows it all;

I thank u fr being here with me all the time. Uve seen me at my worst and I know u dont like the sight of it. But don't act like u know me very well, it creeps me up at times. I don't like the idea of u leaving anytime soon. Maybe, I say maybe, if he leaves, u get to own me. But not just yet, tat is. U know I would need a hell lot of time, if tat ever happens. And I swear I know wat uve been wanting to say all dis time, i only pretended to get all excited abt what ur friends are on about. I'm sorry I'm a bitch.

To u, the one who bring me drunken nights;

I can never get over u, and I never will. And i make u responsible for watever I've becomed now. If ever u got me replaced again, get her out of my sight. And if ever u leave again, just don't come back dis time.

To girlfriend, the one whos a crackpot now;

Stop pretending. I figured out we're both angry with life. We always are. Just don't stop calling me up, I love u.

2011-08-29T00:07:00.003+08:00

And so its raya in abt 24 hrs time or so. Im very lazy to tidy up my room, neither am i up fr any celebrations this time ard. I just want to tuck myself in to bed. And to think abt having to go to work when everyone else is out enjoying themselves feasting and laughing happily together, sucks totally. So do come and visit me at ion orchard tmr alrite.

I sadddd. :((

2011-08-27T03:19:00.008+08:00

And now tat im back from sitting ard at the wee hours into morning after so long, watever we've talked abt earlier on got me thinking. You said i needed to move on, to start afresh, to get rid of the old. You told me i deserved someone better, someone who doesnt cheat, someone whos willing to stay dis time. And i know, i know so. But ive never been ready fr dis to be honest. And u never knew how difficult it was. You got wat u wanted, and i envy u fr having him now.

Why dont u get me a match? Im serious.
And ive already got someone in my mind now. ;)
I want HIM ok? Please.

Hopefully it'll work. If tat message got sent across tat is.. and if u remembered.
Well u promised ul work things out for me, didnt u?

Now pull a 1-80, bring it right back

2011-08-13T21:41:00.004+08:00

Ive been missing this old bitch alot these days, and i want to bring her right back; It doesnt matter if tats nt good news to u. To me it sure is. Im tired of being too serious; I feel soooo old recently. And im not enjoying life anymore. I want to keep keeping my hands in the air while dropping down low on whoever there is, and I want to keep having to have my rock bottles, glasses high on top of my head! PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS

And now tat altitude is getting in my way, life's definitely being a bitch to me. ;( Definitely.

Il see u around, im going off to try to kill myself by eating the many tasty brownies sitting nicely in the fridge for being home on a saturday night. Goodnight, have a great weekend to myself.

2011-02-26T01:29:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO SHOP, SHOP, SHOP, I CAN DIE NOW!!!!!!!!

K da bye, nk bobok!!!!
Nk feeling2 cute, actuallllllyyyyyyy ah kan.

2011-02-14T06:35:00.010+08:00

Happy valentine's everyone! I definitely will not be doing good today, work later in the afternoon, and no dates! And and, I want to sleep really badly! And and and, those were last last week's pictures! Tkde life eh aku, pedih2 siol ni!!!!!!!!

2011-02-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

The feeling I have when Im with u is why I didnt give up when everyone keeps on telling me to stop trying.

2011-01-31T01:51:00.004+08:00

I miss my honeyboy already, whos probably now enjoying his aussie ass off in school. HAHA. Honeyboy. Stooooopid old man.

2011-01-21T01:42:00.005+08:00

My babies; Cute ayeee?

2011-01-15T17:57:00.003+08:00

.... Power rangers ok dis one!! HAHA

If I ask nice, can I take u home with me?

2011-01-13T04:19:00.025+08:00

So tat was my very beautiful family and my trip to tak-habes2 KL. 10 kali dalam setahon pg sane, 10 kali kita akan pg tempat2 sama, and 10 kali jugak la kita akan amek gambar2 bodo.. tapi tkpe, cos I LOVE taking lots of pictures! Speaking of which, Im very very lazy to upload many of them in here, so all the above are, of course.. wat I think pictured my outfits the most. HAHAHA! CB!!!

Im still really tired. So goodnight.

And so uve seen, I went partying, like finally. Mat Malaysia pon mat Malaysia la nohhhhhhhhhhhh.. Janji I dapat joget2 pinang siakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

'Protect me from my friends; I can take care of my enemies.'

SAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP. Talking siol! Thought I wld share tat with u.

K da Bye Bye Cheebye.

2011-01-04T03:29:00.006+08:00

HEAR, HEAR!

And Im fucking sure we will all live dis 2011.

2011-01-03T13:10:00.010+08:00

I swear my boy here makes the most sweetest and cutest mat rempit ever, dont u think so? HAHA. Cute rabak pe dekni, pantat btol!!! And tmr he'll be schooling! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Cannnnnnot angkat sia dis hantu will be schooling!

2011

2011-01-03T11:51:00.012+08:00

So tats to a fucked up 2010, and maybe an even worse 2011. And the shittiest part being the only pussy among these male dogs: U dont get taken in pictures; U do the taking. Which is really frustrating for me, very very much.

Hope everyone had a great new year!

2010-12-29T15:46:00.005+08:00

The room is full but all I see is
The way ur eyes just blaze through me
Like fire in the dark, we're like living art
And it hits me like a tidal wave

Are u feeling me, or is it the music to blame

And by the time we say goodnight, I'll sure know if tat was right.

Ok go, badan da gatal2, kaki da miang2, untok myself to joget2 pinang.

Rhyme kappppppppppppppppaacccccccccccccccc????
Jahanam, whye!!
Minahrep, begitu jugak la kannnnnnnnnnn.

I relek ajeeeeeeeeee.

2010-12-27T23:44:00.003+08:00

Someone just commented I look like a 'trans', I dont know wat they are named, but u know the ladies with cocks down under there. And no, Im definitely not proud of being thought one. But oh, come on, seriously, WAT THE FUCK DUDE????????

So tell me again what's the name

2010-12-23T22:14:00.026+08:00

The last 2 pictures; They happen alot as well when u feel abit toooooo lucky and in love. Wow, and I never knew previously. HAHA. Im really sorry, Neni-IM-IN-LOVE-NOW.

Honestly, I do not know the ppl in the pictures above, besides my gfs and the 2 lovers of cos. Bcos they werent taken by me, some itchy hands just had to go snap snap snap the first time, and I swear I had a hard time deleting most of the pictures away. But whatever, I kind of enjoyed being all wet and tongek-ing at the very end of the nights, though I swear I wanted so much to kick Neni's ass, watching her make love with her phone every 5 mins.

Ok bye, Il be dying on my bed for at least another day.

When U stop breaking my heart

2010-12-17T15:23:00.008+08:00

I am the girl who prefers a wardrobe of clothes than one, or even a dozen of roses.
I am the girl who would rather go to a wild party with my girlfriends, or some random strangers, than to stay in on a Friday night.
I am the girl who would want u to wait on my hand and foot, than see u happy.
I am the girl who would enjoy going to fancy restaurants, than having movie nights.
I am the girl who would rather go out and get drunk, than stay up all night sharing secrets.
I am the girl who wouldnt hold your hand, but would rather make you hold my shopping bags.

I am the girl who would like u to love me, more than anyone can possibly dream of.
I am the girl who wants u to give the world just to see me smile.

Oh yes, I am that bitch.

But no matter what, I still want u to be my hero, and I know that we've definitely lost our minds being together.

And I still remember that morning when I woke up beside u, with a bottle of JD lying next to us, u looked into my eyes and u said u loved me. I believed u at that moment, almost, until these words came next; 'I nak pipis.' Cheeebye.

Haha. Yeah, we're definitely crazy.
I MISS U LA MONSTER, WE SHOULD STOP FIGHTING ALREADY OK!

2010-12-14T03:32:00.009+08:00

And yes, I get to lay my big ass on tat seat!!!!! THAT seat ok!!! 'MAMA, AKU NAK KAHWIN!!!' Wooohooooo YEBBAAA YEBBBBBAAAAA ANDRE ANDREEEEEEEE!!!

And we'll all dance on

2010-12-11T13:28:00.007+08:00

Nari org busy mabok and joget-joget pinang di zoukout, tapi I'll be sibok kipas-ing my favourite crazy cousin gaknya kat atas pelamin pkol 8pm bila dia got nikah-ed eh. Hidop sedih pe, and the baju I bought some time ago can collect habok at the back of the wardrobe, still in the own bag ah kan.

Ok lah, wish ya'll the best tonight: Party like a ROCKSTAR, Fuck like a PORNSTAR yg penting.

Untok Nisha: Meh kita nangis hard later tonight, in baju melayu and killer heels. And WaniePANTAT, u better be at Kak WawaGILER's house tonight.

CB.

NO GIRLS, NO GLORY

2010-12-10T02:40:00.004+08:00

More like: No NISHA, No GLORY ok.
So shut up and get tat up ur head, u monkey-assed bastard.

But I hate fights and I swear I want to kiss u so hard right now.
If only u read dis ah.

Cheebye.

PS: I have never typed out the word CHEEBYE, as in C H E E B Y E, usually its just CB, but now its CHEEBYE. And when I really type the word CHEEBYE out, it means ur CHEEBYE is in real great danger, and I AM so going to bust ur CHEEBYE anytime soon. CHEEBYE.

And lastly, my hair looks so CHEEBYE now.

Haha, cb.

2010-12-05T05:11:00.008+08:00

U dont get to see me in a picture with dis ammi of mine all the time, I sayang dia lah kan!

And tat one above, the very first one, is just like say 1/2 of a quarter of my big happy family. I suke pergi org kahwin, I suke mat kompangs, but most of all, I suke my new red stilettos!! HAHA.

Ok, one more next week. I grew up with her, the one in black and green; Shes turned into dis very beautiful woman, now tat shes getting married. Im going to miss going out with her to town for shopping, in search of dresses and squealing everytime we see pretty ones.

Alah, I touching.
Cb.

2010-11-25T17:28:00.003+08:00

He says she's a tramp
Well she's a tramp, she's a vamp, but she still does her dance
She's a tramp, she's a vamp, but she still kills the dance

Let us all dance in the dark.

2010-11-13T05:23:00.004+08:00

I swear Il go mad with just one more day of staying in.
And, Ive lost my job.
Reason being I went missing for too long.
_|_

Watever, Im a free bitch now.

2010-11-12T03:39:00.006+08:00

Come, pull me a beer
No pretty drinks, I'm a guy out here

I can do it like a brother
Do it like a dude
Grab my crotch, wear my hat low like you

2010-11-11T04:44:00.004+08:00

Ok, Ive been away for my health.
And have been spending too much time on my bed, I swear Im going to get bed sores soon.
Many many apologies for all those not picked up calls, no replies, or very late texts.

Its scary though, dis is.
And no, I am not going to die, not just yet.
Ul see me back on the dancefloor, taking shots, in no time.

HAHA.

Ok, TAT is seriously not funny.
Cb.

2010-11-02T02:23:00.003+08:00

Whip it up, Lick it up
Suck it down
And drink it up

Body shots, at the bar
My girls, they wanna buy it
So we're drinking like rockstars

I miss partying already.
:(

2010-10-28T09:30:00.002+08:00

I WANT a new black belt in replacement of my old one, the one that Ive worn since like forever its all torn and damaged and the metal buckles fell out, but Im still keeping them; I didnt realised it has been collecting dusts at the very back of my wardrobe and I kind of miss putting on a belt tat feels ME, so I WANT A NEW BELT NOW. I WANT a new pair of jeans, and when I get them, Imma rip them off apart with all my heart, tat it'll look 14 years of age. I WANT more crazy black knitted tops, I dun care if I look like Ive got spiderwebs on me. Who cares anws? Spiders are cool creatures. I WANT those long cardigans, I want to look like I just got out of bed and am walking ard with my robe on. I dun care, really. I WANT tat black cut-out dress I saw few days ago, and Im wanting it really bad its hurting me to even write abt it in here. HMPHH.

I WANT EVERYTHING, ANYTHING ELSE NICE IN MY WARDROBE, I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HEAR MY WARDROBE COUGHS AT NIGHT.

BUT, most importantly, I WANT a pair of black biker boots, the one that Miley Cyrus wore with her short leopard-print dress. And, I dun care if u think Im crazy for wanting them. They're so... crazy.

And, Miley Cyrus??? WTF!! HAHA!

2010-10-22T08:33:00.010+08:00

Oh wells.
'Oh my, she's a drunkie.'
And sure she was.

Hopefully, u had lots of fun getting all knocked out. And wet. HAHA.
And hopefully, its not too late to still wish u a happy 19th birthday, ANJA.

And and I guess u know wat to do now the next time we party; Never say 'Im definitely still ok' with the fucking annoying feeling-power smirk on tat bloody face of urs.

U cheebye-head.

Ladies at My table go wild

2010-10-12T02:51:00.003+08:00

Girls, I keep it gangster, popping bottles at the club
This is how I live, every single night of the weekend
Take that bottle to the head, and let me see you fly

Popping bottles in the ice, like a blizzard
When we drink, we do it right getting slizzard
Now I’m feeling so fly like a G6

Drink it up, drink, drink it up
When sober girls around YOU, they'd be acting like they're drunk
They'd be acting like they're drunk, acting, acting like they're drunk

Keyword: GIRLS, not boys ok
HAHA.
Feeling2 Power Lesbian

ANJACHEEBYE, 20TH U'RE GOING DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, BOY.

STEP INSIDE THE CIRCUIT

2010-10-09T12:36:00.024+08:00

First off, pls do not mind all my tummys. Horrific sight, I know. I think I need to get my hands on one of those tummy-sucker-mums' underpants. Haha, cb.

Second, it has already become a tradition for me to have my red bra, maybe THE red bra, on everytime I party or it'll feel really weird.. Believe me. And ya, I dont wash them. Even if I do, I still put them on, wet.. Dont believe me. HAHA, cb.

Third, I apologise for the repetition use of tat high-waisted-I-think-its-uh-cool-because-I-get-to-show-some-skin-because-I-THINK-I-think-my-parents-come-from-uh-Hollywood pants of mine. THAT thing's already crazily me that I think I want to start wearing it even to bed. Cb.

Fourth, I need a face-reconstruction fucking desperately. The zits are killing me now. Cb.

Fifth, maybe, I should stop partying already. I seriously dont like the idea of having to die early. Cb.

Sixth, I want more of PLAY pls. AshiyaBAHALOL, I want the pictures, thank you not so nice, but ure actually ok ah cos Ive used up alot of ur money. And, ure not supposed to get mad at me, or Il go missing like KairaBELO. GUA TNGA BLACKMAILING NI BROTHER!! STEP TAKOT LA SIOL!! *Goyang2 sket, lepas tu campak kerusi* SIAL HABES!!! Haha, cb.

Seventh, no seventh. Haha, cb.

Anws the last few pictures're not mine. They're a month back but I thought Il post them here, cos I think I think its very uh, very cool to be one party people. HAHA, CB!!!!

Ok, not funny.
Ok, fuck u.

2010-10-07T02:22:00.003+08:00

I RINDU MISTER HITAM. TAPI TKPE. I STRONG.

APSAL, TAK BOLE PE? MEH SINI AH KITA FIGHT!
BODOH.

A few nights of hard partying at the end of the month should do me fine.
But, question is, whos willing to come with me this time?

I can already hear Nick-Im-THE-CHEEBYE-Matrep says, 'Pompuan saket club.'
I tak rela ok.

2010-10-05T08:02:00.004+08:00

Remember the girl that meant everything?
Remember the girl that put up with all your shits?
Remember the girl that stayed with you all night on the phone just listening to you? Remember the girl that gave up her own time just to spend it with you?
Remember the girl you promised forever to?
Remember the girl that tried her best to make you happy?
Remember the girl that forgot your lies and forgave you every single time?

Now look at her. You’re the only thing she ever thinks about. Everyday she’s struggling to keep up her act, TO YOU. Look at what you’ve done. Oh no, BITCH, you didn’t break her; You completely destroyed her.

I TOTALLY LOVE THIS.

I aint YOUR SuperGirl

2010-10-03T01:38:00.004+08:00

It took me 3 days to put up all the above pictures, cos dis laptop, or maybe blogger, was being a bitch. On thursday night, I actually fell asleep, too tired of waiting, after having second thoughts of throwing dis laptop out of the window, situated directly above me on tat night. Lucky bastard, u laptop. KNNBCCB!

I just got back from the Night Safari wit monster. Yeah yeah, very romantic, I know right~~ But unfortunately, I didnt have the camera wit me, so no pictures dis time, which is a waste, cos it was HALLOWEEN NIGHT back there! Best kan, best kan??

Im bored right now. And am officially broke. HAHA.

Dear Friends
I, Hanisah Binte Abdul Halim, hereby declare, that I am so sick and tired of partying on every Wednesday, Friday and Saturday nights of the week. I have had enough of partyings. I will not party anymore dis week and for every other upcoming weeks, except on 20/10/2010, and tat is to celebrate AnjaGF's birthday. After 20th, I promise u now, u will never see me near Bugis, Clarke Quay, Tanjong Pagar or Vivo after midnight.

Yours Truthfully
NISHA

Ok, maybe scratch 20/10/2010, cos theres Zoukout on Dec 11. HAHA.
BINGAI.

Oh yes, the 2 gays, I mean guys, were the 2 very most interesting creatures I came across with on Wednesday night. Btw, Nurul or, Huda's only 18. And, she is not my sister.

To AshiyaBABY: I know ure reading dis, cos I saw ur Tumblr. Those're my pictures ure ripping off, DUDETTE! Ure a stalker too! Have fun stealing the rest above. BITCH.

Im not the kind of girl u can let down
And then think everything's ok
This girl needs more than your cheap occassional hugs

2010-09-28T13:13:00.009+08:00

If u still remember, yes, we're definitely in love with cik's stairways.

And, Im in desperate need of a fucking hair treatment, hopefully it could do wonders to my greatly-damaged-very-annoying hair. They suck, really. But, i dont want to chop them off. Any endorsement?

Makcik I gilerrrr.
Ok go, FUCK YOU.

Hands UP, when the music drops

2010-09-26T11:18:00.012+08:00

Well, those are definitely not me.. when Im at the right state of mind. And Im lucky enough they did not snap photos of monster and me chasing and karate-ing each other in the club. I think I fell in love wit monster again yesternight, when hes.. not being monster.

PEDIH2 OI!! DIAMMMMMMMMMMM LA!!
HAHA.

Last last, look at those HUGEEE thighs!! OMG, usher, usher!
HAHA!

CAMILLA

2010-09-25T00:35:00.011+08:00

Introducing to u my feeling-awesome-tired-of-being-an-asian new mate from I-dont-know-where-really.

HAHA!

Thx babies.
I SAYANG YOUS.

HAHA.

FIGHT like a GIRL

2010-09-24T00:56:00.006+08:00

And there u go; KindaichiBABY and her oh-so-cute-lah-sangat red face. HAHA.

It has been so long since we partied together, but I think it was abit sucky, cos I know I'll get to have much much more fun without the monster ard. Stoopid idiotic possesive monster who wouldnt let me off his sight for more than 13 seconds.

Ok go, i nak gi tdo. Pasal besok i ade lunch date ngan my gfs.
Goodnite!

2010-09-22T17:13:00.003+08:00

PARTY, PARTY, PARTY TONIGHT!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

HAHA!

2010-09-22T02:37:00.003+08:00

I miss partying with tat girl right there, as well as the smaller sister. Its been SOOOO long since we actually TALK, the 2 of u, and not forgotten of course, the other girfriend, Hidayah anak Amat. So u girls know wat to do; Text me up for a day out ok.

2010-09-21T11:55:00.004+08:00

And here's the very first post,

without all those 2, ok 7, inches of makeup I usually have on. HAHA

I think I look like a witch on off-duty, but whom forgot to take her wig off.

HAHA, CHEEBYE!

Bang it the Banging way

2010-09-20T09:19:00.006+08:00

I NAK BUAT TAT LOVE THING TAPI TAK BOLE, COS I BARU REALISED TAT BLOGGER BODOH!

Altitude

2010-09-18T11:07:00.010+08:00

Tats how all tipsy bitches with 5 inches, or maybe more, of heels on dance.. I think. With no jugs or glasses dis time, funny how every one of them never got near me rightafter I went cracking, wat more the bloody booties killed me yesternight.

And those're also most probably what u would be seeing if u were to put 3 monkeys, maybe 4, up on the 62nd storey. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE IN THE LIFT, but I did not, cos I took lift number 2, and not 6, or Ashiya and Michi would never get a chance to see me again.
-__-

And and I never knew grisly bears could be so friendly and huggable. They're so gay.

Makin hari aku semakin konek.
Tapi takpe, aku happy.
K da bye, Im off to sleep.

And and and no, we're not back together. Hes just one of my party people.
EHEM, party ppl makcik aku giler.

Go HARD, or Go HOME

2010-09-17T10:04:00.004+08:00

I want u to tell me now tat we're going to party so hard tonight, Paris Hilton's going to go home in shame if she's watching us later.

Hah, In My Dreams.

ONE LOVE

2010-09-12T12:15:00.014+08:00

Dont u think I look like my Mama?
I didnt know! Haha
I thought I look more like tat fierce monster in black right dere.
HAHA.

Watever it is, I love them to the core lah, though I think they suck for the constant screamings I get whenever I returned home from all those till-late-morning partyings. But oh well, I think I deserved them anws.

CHEY CHEY CHEY.
I can hear AshiyaBABY says, 'LIKE UNDERSTAND ONLY!'

HAHA.
I miss u lah sheeeeeebye, bitch. WHERES MY SWENSENS???
HAHA!
TAK MENGHARAP LAH WEIIIIIII.
But can ah actually.

HAHA.
Kepala hotak kau, k go gua ngantok ah.

I say, Move ur body like a FERRARI

2010-09-10T12:57:00.008+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE!

OK, Im bored.
I dont want to be out raya-ing, I want to be out party-ing.
Tmr night. And I cant wait already.

KindaichiBABY: LIKE TAT PIC UP THERE ANOT BBYG?? HAHA!
*eyebrow up-up-UP*

I WANT TO FLY, SO HIGH

2010-09-09T02:35:00.006+08:00

Lady GAGA's gonna scream the moment she sees me with these on.

HAHA!

IM IN TOTAL LOVE WITH MY BOOTIES.
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

Ya, got so obsessssssssssed tat I even took a picture of it.
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!
Ya, I know, watever right~~

And ya, Im gonna wear those for raya.
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!
And and ya, Im gonna wear those for partying dis cuming Sat.
HEHEHEHEHEEHEHHEHE!

I know they will kill me, but I dont care.

HAHA.

Ok go, RISE UP!

I Ride high when Im KING

2010-09-07T06:28:00.005+08:00

'If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.'

HEAR, HEAR!

I used to be a Romeo
Now Ive found my Juliet
I dont roam no more
And all my love she gets
She comes from a different place
I come from the other side
Even though we're not the same
That Girl, shes changed my life

Oh My Juliet, I finally found You.

Uhuhhhh, Ive found my Juliet, I dont need a man.
And no, shes not that monster.

HAHA.

Cos I fuck like a Pornstar; Party like a ROCKSTAR

2010-09-06T05:34:00.012+08:00

Yeah, Im a poserrrrrrrrr like tat. HEHHH.

I promised myself tat Im gonna talk to myself more in here, as well as put up more pictures, just so I wont bore myself whenever I get into dis space.

And I feel like a fucking enormous pig rite now, cos all Im doing these days' been stuffing myself with LOTS of fast foods. And when I say LOTS, I really meant ALOT ok. Thx to that big monster up there. It really sucks with him back ard, cos all he ever does's trying to make me eat like no other human!

And and, I really should stop partying already or the dad's going to screw my bloody monkey ass big time! Plus, Ive spent all my money, and its only the 6th now. Oh tell me sumthing new lah eh!

And and and, I miss all my BITCHES and my GIRLS- Wheres our buke-ing together??? Im soooo angryyyyyy. Get back to me alrite. Raya's coming very very soon oi!

Ok go rambo!

DOUBLE R;

2010-09-04T15:44:00.007+08:00

At first we started out real cool
Taking me places I ain't never been
But now, you're getting comfortable
Ain't doing those things you did no more
You're slowly making me pay for things
Your money should be handling
And now you ask to use my car
Drive it all day and don't fill up the tank
And you have the audacity
To even come and step to me
Ask to hold some money from me
Until you get your check next week

You triflin', good for nothing type of brother
Silly me, why haven't I found another?
A baller, when times get hard
I need someone to help me out
Instead of a scrub like you
Who don't know what a man's about

Can you pay my bills?
Can you pay my telephone bills?
Do you pay my automo' bills?
If you did then maybe we could chill
I don't think you do
So, you and me are through

I NEED MY MAN.

2010-09-04T02:04:00.004+08:00

I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW, BCOS HERE I AM STUCK AT SEMBAWANG, ALL MAD BORED, AND SOMEONE'S AT THE CLUB ENJOYING. AND THE REASON BEING IS I HAVE NO SHOES TO GO PARTYING. HOW UNFAIR.

HE GETS TO BE DANCING, GRIND2 WITH ALL THE NONOKS BUT I GET TO SCORE 0 DICKS TONITE. HOW UNFAIR. I WANT TO GO. TELL ME WHY DOES THE SISTER HAS FEETS SIZE 7? AND NOT 8? I TRIED TO SQUEEZE MINE INTO HER SHOES, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE JUMBO THE ELEPHANT'S TRYING TOO HARD TO WEAR STILETTOS.

FUCK MY LIFE, AND MY FEETS.

I THINK IMMA SHOWER NOW, GET READY AND I SHALL TRY TO SQUEEZE IN SUM MORE, COS THEY SAY FEETS CONTRACT. I BETTER GO HAVE A VERY COLD SHOWER, AND DIP BOTH MY FEETS INTO A BIG PAIL OF ICY WATER NOW. YES, I SHOULD. AND LOOKING AT THE TIME NOW, I DUN HAVE MUCH OF IT TO WASTE. PLUS, HE SAID HE'LL PAY FOR THE CAB FARE. AND I GET FREE DRINKS. HEHEH.

Since Forever

2010-09-03T01:21:00.006+08:00

So what, if I look like a whore?
I dont care, so dont bother.
Im THE proud whore.

FUCK YOU.
Lu bole gi maen kite.

Ok go, meh kiter sama2 mabok2 pinang.

2010-08-21T10:55:00.006+08:00

'I miss u, baby. And I cant wait to see u in tat long dress later.'

HEHEH.
Many apologies for posting this up. Skip dis entry if ure not crazily in love rite now. HAHA.

Well, I love him and tat text Ive only received 2 minutes ago. Im going out for a movie again later on in the evening with my favourite boy at the moment! And he wants me to have my maxi dress on, when the last he saw me wearing it was last week? Funny, how he said how much Ive changed when we've not met for quite some time tat day and I had the dress on.

And as soon as he said those words, I wanted to scream at him for those 6 long months, but I guess I must have forgotten what to say as fast as Ive forgotten how much pain he brought me back then.

Im the dumb-est bitch u can ever find in this entire universe, I know.

MY SWEET LIFE

2010-08-21T04:21:00.016+08:00

I was starting not to like seeing dis blog and I realised why mins ago: There are no pictures on it. Well, I guess Ive stopped taking them wherever I go, and no longer carry a camera with me now. Tats very boring of me. I dun wan to grow old, like KINDAICHI, who claimed shes TOO OLD for club now. Saddddd life lah u. Heheh. But pls make 1st happen baby! I want to have fun with u again, the last was Powerhouse, and tat was AGES ago ok! HAHA.

Those are old pictures btw, taken during the sister's engagement, (Her fiancee reminds me of someone, dun u think so too? HAHA) while out with the uncle when he was here 2 months ago, (Im missing him really badly now. When I do, I remember the 2 dresses he bought me at forever21, and I'll be fine. HAHA, BITCH.) u can also see how much my 2 favourite kids have grown into these little naughty monsters, (I LOVE THEM TO THE CORE LAH ALRITE) what I have on at home (HAHA!) and my 2 bingai bitches, Ashiya and Michi (I want to meet MY 4 VERY BITCHY BEAUTIFUL BITCHES ALTOGETHER VERY SOON, if ya'll are reading dis). And not forgotten, my oh-so-rasta brother-in-law. (He's definitely cracking, btw) Haha.

And dear ex-bf, I love how ure finally here now. I love how ul text, call me up everyday and every minute, when u dun hear from me. I love how ul buy me things when I get mad. I love how ul ask me out everyday now and then appear right under my house an hour later. I love how we partied together though the songs killed me from dancing like a mad bitch. I love how we'll be bullshitting while waiting for the movies to start. I love how ul walk me home and we'll talk about Nina, Su and ur other girls. I love how ul fetch me from work and we'll go for breakfast right-after but dis time, we'll talk about Nick, Helmy, Kelvin and my other friends. And I swear I never felt dis close to u, not even when we're together previously. Most importantly, I want You to stay.

OI, PEDIH-PEDIH SIOLS!

CINTA GILA

2010-08-08T09:15:00.003+08:00

Aku mendak. Boleh?
Hidop skrang boring.
Nak tau kenape?
Pasal duet aku da abes.
Da tak bole gi club.
Da tak bole nak parti2 bogel.
Da tak bole nak joli.
Da tak bole nak mabok2 pinang lagi.
Da tak bole nak joget2, terkinja-kinja macam anak berok.

Lagipon nak puase.
Setan kene gari.
Aku taknak jadi setan dier.
Nanti mak aku sumpah kat rumah, aku kat luar kes confirm kene sambar petir.

Tak nak ah.
Aku taknak mati siang.
Nanti tak bole enjoy.
Org laen enjoy, nanti aku setakat tengok dari 7 feets under.
Buatpe siak gitu?

Lagipon klau aku mati, nanti boring.
Pasal aku tkder boyfren.
Aku nak kahwin biler da tua nanti.
Aku taknak jadi macam MAZ.

Eh, oops.
Sorie ah bro!

And nanti da tak boleh kol and msg Black kacau hidop dier.
Tapi kan, klau aku masok kubor, aku confirm patah balek jadi hantu.
Bagos jugak.
Confirm Black takot ngan aku.
Boleh aku kacau2 dier biler dier nak gi dating eh.

Kakak aku cakap aku giler ketawe2 sorang depan laptop.

BINGAI ah.
Meh kiter dengar lagu 'ONE LOVE' sama2.

Papa dont preach; Mama I still love HIM

2010-07-28T00:59:00.005+08:00

Yes, u should have known whos the bloody bastard.

Im still not over him.
But fuck it, Ive got a date at 10 am later. EHEM. Nope, im not telling. HAHA.

And fuck it x1000, cos its the 28th.
Yes, ure realli smart, Im proud. 28 = PARTY!

HAHA.
See u at Rebel, and watch me fly later on tonight.

CHEY CHEY CHEY.
Feeling2 slut ah kan!
HAHA.

And oh,
Hopefully I'll be leaving trails of glitters behind me after the party, just like Kesha always did.

I want to lose my mind.
I want to lose my clothes too tmr, but tat wont be happening obviously.
Well, I want to tear everything down, till the sun comes back ard.

Im gonna get so smashed, knocking even the trash cans down.
And, break any bottles I see along the way.
Im gonna be in a filthy mess, but I dont care.

Bcos Im angry.

High off HIS love, Drunk from MY hate

2010-07-17T16:21:00.002+08:00

I guess its the broken records playing all over again.
One moment, everything seems so great and we're talking fine.
But the next, we're spitting at each other.

Well, Ive definitely not learnt my lessons. I know.

28TH, PLS COME FAST.

2010-07-15T15:07:00.004+08:00

SHE WONT EVER GET ENOUGH
ONCE SHE GETS A LITTLE TOUCH
IF SHE HAD IT HER WAY
U KNOW SHE'D MAKE U SAY, 'WOAH'

HAHA.

AND THEN, HER LAST KISS WAS A LITTLE LIKE DIS;
SMOOCH SMOOCH
TONGUES OUT
BITES LIP.

OUCH.

OK BYE.

APA SIA BRO?
LU GILA, LU GILA.

Stand, watch me burn; I love the way it hurts

2010-07-11T13:24:00.005+08:00

'Jangan lupe tat i nak kahwin ngn u tau eh?'
'Ya rite, u nak kahwin wit Nina, not me.'
'No, Nina is a fren. I nak kahwin ngn u, bukan dier.'
'Ni cap2 kat tangan sume nk letak kat mane lau btol u nk kahwin ngan i?'
'Alah, ni nanti2 bole bobal.'
'U know how my parents are like, so no, unless u do something abt them.'
'Ape seh, pasal tattoos tk bole kahwin. Mepek ah gni.'
'Yg u gatal2 gi tambah, apsal?'
'Heheh.' It was so cute, the smile, I can suffocate.
'Its not funny.'
Kisses forehead, 'Watever it is, I tetap nk kahwin ngn u aje.'

I know dis conversation sounds crazy, but I miss tat boy and Im missing dis particular convo tat we had last 2 nites, when he asked me out, like finally. The last was in April.

And i know, im not going to receive any of his text or even get the chance to see him again, for the next 3 months or so, or maybe, never would again.

I want u back love.

If there is anything I could have in the world rite now, its you.
Yes, Ive lost to u, again.

2010-07-06T00:28:00.003+08:00

U lied. Im so tired of being lied at, again, and again.

Yes, I still want u. I was hoping tat u would at least reply to my text very soon after u left the place few hours ago, but u did not.

I miss u.

Even if Im very broke or if Im only left with 4 fucking bucks in the bloody wallet, I want partying to happen this coming Wednesday. Yes, Im crazy.

2010-07-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

And its Farhan, bitch, not Khai. HAHA.
WTF. Im fucking malu now.

2010-07-04T08:54:00.005+08:00

Many congrats to the big sister for getting hitched, like finally; She got engaged yesterday. I promise Il put up pictures alrite, but Im just too lazy to upload them up.

And many thanks to Neni, for shes one of the reasons why my legs are hurting again now. She got abit out of control on the dancefloor last night, I had to keep using the word 'FUCK' while screaming at her to stop jumping and pushing everywhere she went.

And, Khai is so cute I can die just watching him dance. Faster text me up! Heheh.
WATTTTTT?

FUCK YOU.

2010-07-03T06:31:00.005+08:00

I didn know tat I was going to be in fr a lot of surprises today.

Well, boy, ure screwed. Or maybe, Im screwed. And, BIG TIME, it is.

U threw a fucking big bash fr ur birthday, and Im the last one to know. How nice.
Uve made lots of new frens in Toa Payoh, and one of the girl's putting u into deep shits the moment she added me up on FB. But, no worries, Im in no time fr girl fights.
And, nice body arts uve got on ur bod and arms there, from wat I saw. I wonder if the name 'NISHA' is written across ur wrist. Tats wat u promised urself, didnt u, if ever we were to leave each other.

But most importantly, uve got a girlfriend now.

And Im not dumb, her name's NINA.

NINA, GO SUCK HIS COCK. I BET HES BEEN WANTING IT.

BOYS. SUCK.

2010-07-02T16:55:00.002+08:00

I dont want to be in love with u again.

I know this is not love Im feeling in me.
I believe its just the feeling of attachment that has been with me so long, it has developed into a habit.

But nevertheless, I miss you.

And I think I can die, if ever I found out that Uve found my replacement.

TEAM JACOB, FOREVER.

2010-07-02T07:38:00.005+08:00

I want to go out for dinner at Simpang tonight and eat kebab again. Anyone?

The sister's getting engaged in like less than 24 hours from now. I wish I could get away from having to springclean the house as well as the mess in my room, and I wish she would stop using my stuffs. Yes, Im angry.

But, Im angrier cos the 2 bitches went having fun at a Thai club without asking me along. Damn bastards!

I think I should go back to sleep again cos I woke up too early for a normal human being dis morning. Dun ask, but yeah, I died on my bed as soon as I reached home at 2 yesternite, with my jumpsuit, makeup and many-bangles still on. I had no idea, really.

ECLIPSE is abit of a dissapointment to me, but JACOB BLACK IS SO HOT, I WANT TO HAVE HIS BABY! I DONT MIND WEREWOLVES, NO! I LOVE HIM LAAAAAAAAA. I saw pigs fly in the theatre sia! Even my uncle did. Bloody gay, him. And Edward Cullen too. Haha.

And my legs hurt, like fuck now. Yes Anja, laugh louder. See u later bachen for 9temples.

Gas up the jet for me tonight, Ive said I want to have watever I like

2010-07-01T09:34:00.005+08:00

First off, the ex-bf texted me up saying he missed me and tat he has changed. Im not gonna fall fr u again dis time, sorie. But yes, I would love to go out on a movie date with u next week, maybe, if u ever remembered my numb again when next week comes.

Secondly, Nick and his bff got bounced off the club so it was shitty yesternite. But yeah, we had a great hell of a time very soonafter, though it was only the 3 of us, while the boys were at Supperclub.

And Bachen, EHEM, Maya siotttttttt. Still remember? HAHA.

And Neni, EHEM, blue River Nile siottttttttt. Sexy. HAHA.

And I know wat I did last 6 hours ago wasnt clever, but give me a chance to really meet him again, ok can pls? HAHA.

2010-06-25T02:49:00.003+08:00

Well, its already Friday. 5 more days. And my only off day fr dis week's been wasted, thx to me and my never had enough of sleep. I have no idea why Ive been spending too much time on the bed lately. Yes, Im angry wit myself.

Im bored rite now.

I want to eat Macdonald's Mcspicy and Emicakes' Oreo Tiramisu again. And Long John's as well as Swensens' Chicken Baked Rice. And KFC's Cheese Fries, together with Fish and Co's New York FishnChips.

'Alahhhhhh, Black maner??'

And now spin MY world into Reverse

2010-06-20T09:08:00.005+08:00

Im having ultimate many-times orgasms right now, just with the thought of how much Im going to enjoy my night on dis coming 30th! HAHA, I really cant wait, really! I want to see how cute Neni would be, how parkinson-ish Anja's gonna get, how Maz would be all awkward dancing, how Nick's gonna get into the club sick, how fucking fuck-surprised Aidil would get seeing Nick. HAHA. And yes, lastly, how whorish Il get tat night. IM PLANNING TO TAKE MY CLOTHES OFF IN THE CLUB. So come, take dirty pictures of me.

1,

2,

3!

Kidding ah, of cos. WTF, I KNOW!!

And sorry Azman-the-Great, but it looks like Il have to cross u out too, cos u said GIRLS are WEAK creatures.
Now, didnt Mummy taught u tat TAT is a NO-NO?

And, didnt Mummy ever told u tat A MAN of EQUALITY is NEVER afraid of A WOMAN of QUALITY?

Yes, Fuck You.
And ur Holland can go suck balls.
Cheers.

Its ok, chill, Im good, everything's fine, Lets Go!

'Apaa siaaa kau bebbbbbb?!'

2010-06-19T11:38:00.001+08:00

Im so bored, im actually writing from MazGiler's hp. I feel so dope and celebrity-ish now! I think i want to sign up for twitter alreadi! Haha. Its fucking close to noon rite now, but im still at 7e doing i dun know wat! Thx to the fucker whose dis hp belongs to, for making me wait, wat feels like forever. But watever, il be dead on the bed if im home anws. And i dun enjoy TAT, no, not now, tat is. Heheh.

I have no idea wat dis post is all about, but i very jakon! HAHA.

See u later, maskaras~~!
Sumpah, nisha, kau makin merepek makin hari.

I took one look in his eyes, and then he fell for all my lies

2010-06-18T07:57:00.006+08:00

More like I took just ONE look in his eyes, and then I fell for all HIS lies.

Bitch: I could be ur jackass partner, I could even pass as ur favourite boy, if u want me to.
MID: No, Ure not Maz.
Bitch: Come on, Im a potential lesbian. Its fucking 2010.
MID: Be it 2010, 2011, or 4 more years down the road, dun let me see u turned into one.
Bitch: Wat the fuck sia kau, why not?
MID: Aku pukol kau sia kalau aku nmpak kau jadi lesbo. And sumpah, aku takkan kawan ngan kau lagi.
Bitch: Eh emo ah pulak kau.
MID: Serious ah fuck, tkmo mepek. Pasal kau punye jantan sorang, kau nak macam2 all.
Bitch: HAHAHAHAHAHA. Fuck u la, matrep. But see how ah.

And he ran after the bitch, who then dashed into 7eleven and hid behind the counter. The bitch's obviously me la ok, if ya'll wondering.

That Matrep-in-denial surprised me last 2 nights, when he came in during my shift, grabbed beers and asked me out for a smoke, or was it smokes? Haha. And he started talking about how he's a changed man now and he sees me as a candidate for his new BFF. Then, started making plans for a sheesha outing with me tat evening and got all excited on wat to wear, without even me agreeing in the first fucking place. But of cos, I decided not to go though he said it was his treat. Nah, tkde duet dudok rumah diam2, kakak aku cakap ah kan biler aku gado ngn dier pg2 for tat bloody 10 bux untok duet rokok aje. Well, he's nice.

And I can hear AshiyaBINGAI go, 'Everyone's nice to u, but they turned out not in the end.'

HAHA, jyeahhh.
Pls dun ask wats the reason why dis blog's been flooding with entries every day early in the mornings. Ive been having sleepless nights lately.

And plus, the boy's turning 21 in about 16 hours time. Ah, I wish u well lah, and hopefully, unlike wat I did, treasure tmr, cos its not like everyday tat the big boy gets to turn 2-1.

AAH, AKU EMO, APSAL? NAK FIGHT?

And dis time I can hear WaniCIBAI says, 'Diam ah, nk pedih2 pulak kat sini!'

Korang sume prangai pantat.
Aku suke write2 kat sini dalam BAHASA MELAYU, psl aku sound like minahrep.
Mane blaja?
Tk tahu.

Rhyme rite rite rite??
Ok go, come say with me, 'MAEN KAU!'

2010-06-17T08:09:00.004+08:00

U know LIFE's being a total BITCH when u had to quarrel with the bloody Sister for 10 bux, yes, TEN MOTHERFUCKING BUX.

Fuck you lah, Sister.
10 bux aje pon lu nk kecoh bro!
And Nisha, kau giler, say yes to going out again la next time when u knw uve got no sen. BANGAU tol.

Ape aje.
Ok da, maen kau.

HAHAHAHA!

Tk klaka bodo.

For Death is Rest;

2010-06-16T09:31:00.009+08:00

Azzura was fine, I got back home alive, though I was half-naked and reached home to the peace and serenity of Morning -The mother screaming. Haha! TAT, is wat I called life, now. Watever.

I am really bored I can die; But just not yet.
Cos I have to live up till the 30th. HEHEH.
And then, I shall die, cos I'll be penniless AGAIN very soonafter.

See you later, Alligators~~!

Eh wait, wait.

Fuck You.

:DD

2010-06-12T20:50:00.003+08:00

KINDAICHIBABY TAUGHT ME SOMETHING NEW WHICH GOT ME ALL EXCITED I COULD PEE IN MY PANTS, FEW MINS AGO ON MSN;

_|_

YES, FUCK YOU.

Kissy Kissy Killer Kitty, PLAY ALONG with Me

2010-06-11T04:01:00.004+08:00

And I would like to thank these people for the lil 'surprise' just few hours ago, though there is no way u could fool me with all those faces ya'll pulled last evening, considering the fact tat Ive always been the mastermind when it comes to UR big day. As much as I said Im not up for any kind of celebrations dis year, I actually wanted them so much, as much as I couldnt live without my concealers. HAHA, cool eh my line?

And lastly;

HAPPY 20TH AGAIN, BITCH!

See u at Azzura later, YPs.
I think I wanna cripple and DIE now, just so I can paitao tat asshole.

2010-06-10T03:31:00.003+08:00

Turning 20 was kinda sucky; I lost stuffs, I could do with some bangla-bashings, I had to go to work, ppl were not being extremely nice to me that day, it was a fucking boring day spent at home, no one wans to party with me, Im penniless, but most importantly, he forgot all abt me. I was expecting his text to come later in the evening as soon as I woke up from my long sleep, but it didn came.

BOO, IM CROSSING YOU OUT.
You've expired; Your fucking time is up. I'm gonna discard you and get a fucking new one, or maybe new ones. All thx to u.

Ive been fooled once (or was it many times?) why would I be dumb twice?
FUCK YOU NOW.

Yes, Im very angry I can eat a fucking lion up.

2010-06-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
I LOVE YOU, NISHA!

Roll the dice, And tell me wat Ure here for

2010-06-06T11:41:00.003+08:00

Well, right now, wat else can I be blogging on but the fact tat I had such a great time last Wednesday in the club with AidilHOBO. Urm, yeah, we went to the club, just the 2 of us. HAHA. And the other girls u saw in the pictures are my beautiful new friends. HAHA, so random, I know. Im really REALLY bored now and I could do with some writing but Ive got nothing to pen down on in mind!

'You seem like the type
To love them and leave them
And dissapear right after this song
So give me the night
To show you, Hold you
Don't leave me out here dancing alone'

HAHA, THX BIG TIME DUDE!
Is he not sweet to have a song after me and then made me dance to it tat night? HAHA.
How can I not fall for him, tell me.
But he also said I TALK LIKE A DUDE.

And TAT, is always not a good sign.

PARTYSICK ELECTRIC

2010-05-31T06:03:00.004+08:00

'One day I will rape that machine and get that cheebye ONE MILLION DOLLARS.'

Was at my FB page, I was reading dis -And I burst out laughing so loud I can wake the whole house up! Wat time is it again now? 5:55 am. The sister said Im mentally ill. HAHA. Fucking funny, bitch, u. U should know who u are, asshole, if ure reading dis post. I LOVE YOU. :))

Will be out with AshiyaBABY later, in abt few hours time from now for a movie, hopefully. Its been a long time since our movie out together, AND AND I WANT TO TAKE PICTURES! Cant wait really. I LOVE YOU TOO.

I WANT TO GO FOR TAT PARTY AT SENTOSA DIS COMING 11TH PLS PLS PLS PLS! I KNOW I SAID IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MY 20TH, BUT I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO TO TAT PARTY WITH MY GIRLS, WOULD YA'LL GO IF I WERE TO SAY ITS MY ONLY BIRTHDAY WISH? COS I DUN WANT TO BE GOING ALONE AND GET RAPED WITH TAT AIDILHOBO! IVE BEEN ASKING ARD SINCE A WEEK AGO, BUT NONE OF MY GIRLS WANT TO COME, WAT A SAD LIFE, ITS MY BIRTHDAY YA'KNOE!! :(( PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS!

I LOVE YOU ALL. :)))
And oh, GOOD MORNING!

And finally;

2010-05-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

OOPS! :))

I want more of yesternite's kind of Saturdays! Heheh.

2010-05-30T01:04:00.008+08:00

There u go, 7Eleven, Im so proud to be putting on tat red shirt of urs. Haha, now FUCK YOU.

Never Have I Ever;

2010-05-28T05:52:00.008+08:00

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear
That you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look you in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

And it's all here in
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

And Im definitely bleeding my heart out here, just for You.

I think Ive becomed someone Im not. And, you're the only reason why. U shouldnt have come into my life in the first fucking place; We shouldnt have happened. 4 days back I was looking into the mirror late in the middle of the night, I hated what was reflected on it, staring back at me; It all happened too soon. I want her back, the one previously. If this is what I have becomed, then I wouldnt want to be hiding behind all these makeups, or worry on how much I weigh, or whether I'll ever get hooked again. Yes, Im in a terrible mess. Tell me about it.

And later, she said it was ok, it was alright to go with the flow of time; To change. But then, she added, the one she knew's still deep inside within me. And Ive buried the old me 7 feets under; I do not wish to. Funny, I miss you too babe. Most importantly, I miss us.

And if there's anything that I could say right now that Ive not said previously: I loved you.

2010-05-23T22:14:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO TAKE LOTS, LOTS, LOTS AND LOTS OF PICTURES WITH MY BITCHES AGAIN. BUT DRUNKEN ONES. PLS PLS PLS PLS, PRETTY PLS!

U're loading the gun and now, I'm gonna blow it

2010-05-20T02:23:00.001+08:00

OK, LAME.

HAHA, Batman would love dis one above.

Here's my brother's impersonation of Jessica Simpson doing her carwash.. and obviously he failed. HAHA

2010-05-18T03:10:00.006+08:00

I want to:

Receive good morning texts which end with 'I LOVE YOU'
Have kisses on the forehead
Have kisses on the shoulder
Hold hands and walk with You till late at night
Laugh at your jokes, which were seriously never funny at all
Bid long Goodbyes, not short ones
Have the 3 am phone marathon, with me falling asleep and You'll still be at the other end
Wake up in the morning, beside You, and then watch You sleep
Sing 'Fall for You' with You again
Have You all over again

2010-05-17T17:36:00.007+08:00

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

'Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

'Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it's broken

So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first

And make the rules as I go

'Cause I know that she'd be faithful

Waiting for me to come home

But you're just a boy; You don't understand how it feels to love someone.
Someday, you'll wish you were a better man.

Fuck it already, bitch.

I'll Never Talk Again.. I'll Never Love U Again

2010-05-11T11:43:00.002+08:00

Im finally writing again in return favor to the call DayahGF gave me late last night, asking me when's the next time I'll ever be blogging. So Babe, here I am, and like I told u on the phone yesternight, Ive lost touch to writing. Right now, I seriously have no idea on what to write about. THAT EQUALS to NO LIFE. Knnbccb.

But did I already mentioned that nxt month's my BIG DAY? I want presents ok. Yes, Im an asshole, like that. Buy me just any one of TOPSHOP's boutique, preferably at Tampines 1 so it would be easier for me to travel to my store if ever I need new outfits, and I promise I'll love u, forever. Im never hard to please.

My heart's now protected with shields so vast, cos Ive woken up to a reality, that there would never be 'US' in our destiny. I can't hold on any longer, cos for us, there's no forever. Ok, I know, fucking random.

AH YA LOR, IM LYING, AND AM STILL WAITING. OK FUCK YOU.

2010-04-28T08:48:00.003+08:00

And now, its Batman and in the RAIN. :))
Im not in love, not yet.

Yes, Im FINE WITHOUT YOU now.
I dont need u here, Ive given u everything.

HAHA.
Stoopid old BOY.

2010-04-21T07:34:00.000+08:00

'I’m scared to move on because I’m worried that the second I’m happy with someone else, you’ll pop up and ruin it. Ruin it by telling me that you want me, and that you’re sorry, and that you like me “kinda a lot,” and that you miss me “kinda a lot.” I’m worried that I’ll get so confused because I’ll be so happy with him, but of course I’ll still want you, and that will make me start crying all the time, end up losing the best relationship I ever had, just to have you get bored again and move onto some trashy girl. The worst part about all of this? I can see you doing it, because you want me hooked, you want me as an option, even if it is an option you’ll never take.'

So Long.. And Then We Bid A GoodBye

2010-04-21T07:32:00.001+08:00

Kindaichi's Adv. Big Day, 06 April 2010

And here's the bitch who's got her head shaved and now look like a FUCKING gangster, yes, GANGSTER. :))

THE GEMOKS having fun at work. HAHA.

I think he reminds me of Adam Lambert, dun ask me why. HAHA.
And he's the only human who'll scream 'HANCUR SCRAP' at me!

'One day, I believe I'd find the perfect boy for me. He will be funny and handsome - Well, at least to me. And then, Boy, I know I'd make u my everything. I want to meet my perfect man; I WILL meet my perfect man. Patiently I'd be waiting and everything.'

Thx KindaichiBABY, tat sure made my day. And, of course, to everyone else who has been there for me. :))

2010-04-11T20:28:00.001+08:00

Closure - the term referring to the attempt to accept and come to terms with a situation.

It has been 2 months and 9 days and Im still hoping, honestly, for u to come back. One of these days, it would be nice if only I see u at my workplace, fetching me home like u used to; Just so I could tell u tat Ive missed u, and it has been going on alot more recently.

But, I must say Im still looking to understand what has happened to me, to us, and am still trying to achieve a resolution, or maybe, resolutions. And, I think, right now, accepting forms a very important part of this grieving process. It has been hard, considering the fact that Ive had to go through the stages of shock, denial, anger, despair and whatever more there were.

It was even harder to accept the loss of fantasy, what I called it now, of what Ive hoped would happen in future, between you and me. When our relationship ended, I felt as though someone very very closed to me died, and I was forced to give up that dream. I was afraid of not being with u, and then, u actually left in the end.

Life felt like an outback survival and things have sure been looking grim for awhile, but Im kinda surprised that 2 months has passed. Yes, it has been quite some time but hey, it has been great at how quickly my inner resilience is kicking in.

I have come to make a decision that, though it would be a painful process for me, and I tell u now tat it indeed is, I am moving on with my life for good. I do not want to see u, I do not wish to. I keep on telling myself that Im having a whole new different life now. Yes, its silly but, Im emotionally distancing myself from u and I think this is the best way for me to gain 'closure.'

I know Ive promised my friends and myself 2 months but Im gonna need 6 more months before I could actually embraced singlehood and revelled in the freedom. Im gonna do it diffferently this time; Im not going to make excuses about ur bahaviours. I'll have to try to accept that our time together is over and honour the relationship we had. While Im always trying to scan/read between the lines previously, the reality is, there may not be anything more to be discovered. I asked u what were ur reasons 2 months back and u said u have no idea. Well, maybe, chances are u really meant that line. So, I must learn to accept ur reality, even if its not mine.

This relationship is a growth experioence for me, big time, as it was my first. I have been putting away old photos, sharing feelings with my best bitches and gfs, and I have also written open letters to u, just like this one, to release unresolved emotions Ive been holding on to, during this grieving period. Yes, tats how exactly sick I am since u left. Boys? None of them took over ur place. I need time for adjustments and Im not going to be forceful in order to feel better right away; Im going to be kind to myself during this process.

There is no way that u would be reading this, I know. But, it was worth pouring my heart out. Just few minutes ago, I was crying to a friend, telling her Im angry, for u left me wondering whether u would be coming back. And just yesternight, another man told me Ive lost to u. And now, I assure u tat I would never let it happen again.

2010-04-08T01:09:00.003+08:00

I dont get how a girl my age can get very seriously in love with the boyfriend. Even if u were to ask me about it few months back, when I was still with the ex-boyfriend, I dont think u'll get a straight-right-up answer, like, 'Im devoted to him.' Devoted? Woah, chill babe.

Or maybe, right now, the problem is, Im actually envying these girls and their oh-so-lovely relationships.

I think so, too.

Im losing grip of all of you, bit by bit.

HOPE IS A L-I-A-R

2010-04-03T04:36:00.004+08:00

ALL THE SINGLE LADIES, PUT YOUR RINGS ON!
FINALLY, HAPPY 2 MONTHS, MON AMOUR!

2 fucking months of not having ur butt being egg-ed on.
2 fucking months of not having heartaches, or the diffficulty to breathe.

And 2 fucking months of having jerks talking to u, pretending they know u all well; When what they want's actually some booty-shaking in bed.

Hurhur, yes, Im fucking hurt again.
But, FUCK IT already.

You took ur coat off and stood in the rain, U're crazy like that.

2010-03-29T05:17:00.001+08:00

Its 0504 in the morning right now but I cant seem to put myself to sleep, after the ever-irritating AshiyaBABY texted me up for dinner at 7pm later, and screw them, cos we'll be going to IMM for it. Im suffocating at the thought of the so-long train joyride there. Moreover, Im gonna be, most probably, at Vivo later on with DayahGF, ard 3. SO JYEAHHHH, HELLO MRT RIDES!

And just 45 mins ago, I was talking to KindaichiBABY on a breakfast deal at East Coast park. HAHA! But tats still undecided, cos I wouldnt want to be at ECP, eating breakfast away with just pyjamas, and the thought of having to at least shower up later's killing me too. And plus, I'll have to spend like, say 40 mins, in 15 for a bus ride before I would be able to enjoy my breakfast -excluding the amount of time tat I would have to spend waking tat PIGHEAD up as well as the LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG walk to actually reach Macd. Haha.

And and, Im in need of my daily dosage of irritatingly random pointless talks! Cos Batman lost his phone and I only got to know like few hours ago. BLOODY OLD MAN.

And and and, did I mention that Nick and me kissed? HAHAHAHAHA, ok shuttupppp.

Look around, cos IM CHILLING, BOY!

2010-03-27T18:51:00.001+08:00

Well, finally, I succeeded in having the powerhouse pictures from KindaichiBABY last 2 nights! Haha. She got so irritated to the point of calling me a PSYCHO. Sorry hor, baby! :D But to think tat she's going to the rsvp event at yello jello tonight, dancing the night away with Derrick, and without MY presence, sucks big time, and I think I should have BLACKMAILED her more. And she had the damned guts to call me up when I was having my very-needed sleep, saying tat its a closed event.. ASSHOLE. I angry ah!

So tonight, will be spending my night out, like again, for I dun know how many times dis week already. Durian session with the cinas later at 8, then I could be anywhere. HAHA.

I know Ive not been posting entries for almost 3 weeks now; Ive been doing good, everything's almost fine and my nights have been alot better recently, even though it can suck at times, but Ive been trying real hard to avoid them by having companies around me all the time; Be it the almost-old and willing-to-hear-everything-and-anything butch friend cum best-manager-I-could-ever-had-at-work of mine, or Ure-a-sucker-but-I-still-love-u-to-the-core AshiyaBABY with the Now-Abang-Rempit-and-Mat-Kenderaan Din, or I-talk-non-stop-and-sometimes-I-sound-like-a-fucking-bullet train-the-one-in-London KindaichiBABY, or Im-not-there-but-my-presence-still-lingers Biskot Girlfriends, Anja and Dayah, or I-want-u-only-bcos-u-kissed-well-and-Im-in-serious-need-of-kissing-lessons Nick Matrep-In-Denial, or Manwhorish-mindtripping-and-old-Batman-who-thinks-Im-a-naive-small-GIRL Shah Ja'an, or We-never-talked-but-we-ended-up-having-crashed-convos-and-sleeping-in-the-same-room-together-for-less-than-3-hours-tat-morning classmates, Ive had great times with all of u, the ones above.

Ok, my eyes cuckoo-ed looking at the too-many hyphens. But, well, thx for being there for me, with me, even if it only lasted for awhile or even if u've got no idea wat dis bitch, or maybe wat dis post, is all about. -__-

Yes, I suck, like tat.

2010-03-16T01:30:00.002+08:00

I guess its really over, this time.
And here comes the suckiest part: Time to fucking really move on with fucking life.

Boy, u're fucking responsible for watever Ive become now: Angry, bitter and cold.
Klau aku jumpe kau kat luar ngn next pompuan kau, sumpah, aku will tarek2 rambot dier and then, aku akan bogelkan dier.
Finally, I'll fucking spit on u.

BITCH.
Yes, Im as mad as that and I can be a minahrep when I want to; I dont even need to fucking try hard.

2010-03-13T16:56:00.005+08:00

Its funny how Im still finding it difficult to be moving on from the bloody relationship with the bloody ex-boyfriend. Its been over a month, I still am counting and Im still wasting my time doing nothing but hoping for him to return back to me; I know it wont happened but let me just hope it would. Its funny how he can be wherever he is at now, when he used to be the one texting and calling me up every now and then, asking me for my whereabouts. Well, I guess he must have forgotten all abt me but its fucking unfair tat he did, when Im still here, checking my phone every minute or so. I want him to be meeting me up so much, I swear if ever we got back together again, I'll fucking cut my hair short!

But u wont be seeing my hair short, cos I know tats not gonna happened.

Yes, its sad; Bcos I wasted 2 god damned years-a bloody month-and 25 fucking days of my life with u, ANJENG.
FUCK YOU, BOY.

Anjeng or Anjing = Dog or to cry out loud, its MALE DOG.

2010-03-10T13:43:00.002+08:00

I CAN'T SEEM TO KNOW HOW TO LOVE AGAIN. FUCK,
FUCK, FUCK, BLOODY FUCK!

2010-03-08T22:28:00.005+08:00

Shah,

Stop playing with my head already; Your time is up. And, I should have told u tat Im not the cheap slut u thot I were, I wouldnt want u to be sleeping next to me nor on top and I wouldnt want u as my big brother in the household. Im going to miss u, yes, but it was pointless, me and u, bcos u underestimated me and my chastity.

I hate boys. And Im hurt, yet again, this time.

2010-03-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

Its been exactly a month and 6 days tat u've been missing now. Though I pretended everything was fine, u're actually the last thing tat I thought I would lose.

Ive been waiting and I still am now; Pls dont keep me waiting too long.